I'm trying to avoid the mistakes my mother made. To be molded so firmly then breath by breath warming the mold until it is burning to malleate be malleable and into what, into what?
I love fashion. I've always loved fashion and always been stuck in a mold of jeans equal twenty dollars at most; thirty dollars for jeans was a spree. My mother made me do it.
A Haitian would scrub the tub with my current closet.
Monday, March 22, 2010
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Tuesday, July 7, 2009
With Child
Knowing others with child is a nice way to grow through this. Currently I know 17 women who are preparing for babies in their homes. Little guests of honor. Little tootsie rolls of poo. Of those 17, I consider 5 friends, one just had her little pile of goob on Friday.
More later
Must nap
Our scientific understandings do not encompass all of the miracles of life. Some may have better understandings yet lack the support and community to spread the word. We are left at the mercy of our dissected knowledge and intuitive trusts to create the best lives and life we can.
DHEA is low in my cells. Alarmingly low. And my progesterone is low, three times too low. How will this effect my fetus who will then grow into a newborn into a toddler into a child into an adult? Some believe in a link between low DHEA levels and schizophrenia. Some believe in a link between low or high DHEA levels in utero and homosexuality. Maybe I'll have a schizophrenic homosexual child? Maybe not? 'Tis ok either way, I'll love and support my offspring to whatever delusions of rainbow connection granduer in either case; straight, gay, schizo, bi polar, adhd, normal, emo, jock, princess, loving good child I have. But if the normal range of DHEA is (rounding)100-300 for girls and 200-330 for boys, then of course I want the best for my in utero child's BRAIN DEVELOPMENT; whatever about their personality, I'm sure my child will be great. We all want the best for our children, better lives than what we had. I want my baby to have a great brain.
Also, what will this DHEA/homosexuality link, if researched further and found true, do to the ideas of those who believe in talking or medicating homosexuals into heterosexuality? Will then the church forgive them and condemn the parents and doctors for not using what limited knowlege we have in science for better research in utero? It takes a COMMUNITY to make a child.
My OBGYN is supposed to take care of me during pregnancy. She only does standard insurance approved testing. I had to go to a specialist to get the hormone panel I needed to see about the progesterone and DHEA levels, plus Vitamin D which is required also for brain development. My OBGYN said that even if any of these levels are off, I'll not have a miscarriage. Well, whew for that news, thanks Lady. But what about IQ, what about abnormalities, what about my own health? Well, that's not the OBGYN's concerns- they just want to deliver live babies in whatever form.
Low DHEA levels have also been linked to Post-Partum Depression and some believe is what drives mothers to kill their infants. Huh. Well F#* that. I told my husband, knowing my levels are waay low, to watch me in case i start acting funny once the baby is born. Huh. And OBGYN's will not test you for this. Now, some will say it is because while pregnant, you CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT take supplemental DHEA because it WILL CAUSE A MISCARRIAGE. But, you can try progesterone and hope that your body will take what it needs from the extra progesterone to make the chemical that DHEA is a precursor to . There is hope, by golly; why don't we shoot for the moon? OBGYN's won't touch it with a ten foot pole. Hmmm.
Sheesh. Thanks God for out of the box doctors and specialists.
More later
Must nap
Our scientific understandings do not encompass all of the miracles of life. Some may have better understandings yet lack the support and community to spread the word. We are left at the mercy of our dissected knowledge and intuitive trusts to create the best lives and life we can.
DHEA is low in my cells. Alarmingly low. And my progesterone is low, three times too low. How will this effect my fetus who will then grow into a newborn into a toddler into a child into an adult? Some believe in a link between low DHEA levels and schizophrenia. Some believe in a link between low or high DHEA levels in utero and homosexuality. Maybe I'll have a schizophrenic homosexual child? Maybe not? 'Tis ok either way, I'll love and support my offspring to whatever delusions of rainbow connection granduer in either case; straight, gay, schizo, bi polar, adhd, normal, emo, jock, princess, loving good child I have. But if the normal range of DHEA is (rounding)100-300 for girls and 200-330 for boys, then of course I want the best for my in utero child's BRAIN DEVELOPMENT; whatever about their personality, I'm sure my child will be great. We all want the best for our children, better lives than what we had. I want my baby to have a great brain.
Also, what will this DHEA/homosexuality link, if researched further and found true, do to the ideas of those who believe in talking or medicating homosexuals into heterosexuality? Will then the church forgive them and condemn the parents and doctors for not using what limited knowlege we have in science for better research in utero? It takes a COMMUNITY to make a child.
My OBGYN is supposed to take care of me during pregnancy. She only does standard insurance approved testing. I had to go to a specialist to get the hormone panel I needed to see about the progesterone and DHEA levels, plus Vitamin D which is required also for brain development. My OBGYN said that even if any of these levels are off, I'll not have a miscarriage. Well, whew for that news, thanks Lady. But what about IQ, what about abnormalities, what about my own health? Well, that's not the OBGYN's concerns- they just want to deliver live babies in whatever form.
Low DHEA levels have also been linked to Post-Partum Depression and some believe is what drives mothers to kill their infants. Huh. Well F#* that. I told my husband, knowing my levels are waay low, to watch me in case i start acting funny once the baby is born. Huh. And OBGYN's will not test you for this. Now, some will say it is because while pregnant, you CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT take supplemental DHEA because it WILL CAUSE A MISCARRIAGE. But, you can try progesterone and hope that your body will take what it needs from the extra progesterone to make the chemical that DHEA is a precursor to . There is hope, by golly; why don't we shoot for the moon? OBGYN's won't touch it with a ten foot pole. Hmmm.
Sheesh. Thanks God for out of the box doctors and specialists.
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